I Want to Feel Good

C'mon my friends, praise me, say something good about me.. i want to feel good.. i want to feel confident. Today, i feel better, i think, compared to..uhhhuu..i don't know..a few days ago, maybe. But still my self esteem is not as high as what i want it to be. i need to feel alive, feel the positive energy around me...
Anyway, just now i was on my way jogging but it rained heavily that i have to cancelled my plan. Jogging is a way for me to relieve the negative feelings in me and to make me feel good. Usually during jogging i would think my problems, and when it comes to the frustrated part, i would run as fast as i could, as if to run away from the problems (i wish i could)... then i would feel much better..
Or another way to make me feel contented is by indulging in chocolate. Well, everyone knows how choco acts as mood booster.. but, i don't want to eat choco now due to my weighty issue.. huhu.. if i get one choco, trust me, i won't stop until it finishes, no matter what is the size of the choco.. in fact, any food would for me, esp crunchy food.. oh, it's hard to be me..