Demi Sebuah Perubahan Sebenar

Hahaha..cam best jak title nya..tp just mok madah, demi sik mok rasa sedih n depress agik, aku dgn rajinnya menukar template n memodify apa yg patut ngan harapan aku rasa 'baru'... aku mok jadi baru.. sedar sik sedar, rasanya tok la hasil pembacaan buku motivasi nak dipinjam aku ari ya...tp lom abis agik la aku baca..hehehe.. dolok2 aku sik caya kesan buku2 motivasi tok sbb bg aku motivasi tok datang ari dalaman diri empun. Mun sendiri sik mok berubah, gne2 pun sik kan berubah juak.. menar sik? tp aku tek kali dalaman aku ada juak berubah, pas ya ditambah ngn ayat2 power dlm buku motivasi ya, hasilnya aku menar2 mok berubah. Sik mok rasa sedih agik, sik mok nangis agi... (sbnrnya ari ya, dear ada merik msg madah 'iboh slalu nangis'... bla ada org madah cam ya ngn aku, cam automatik jak ikut kata org ya..menar.. mudah terpengaruh juak aku tok sebenarnya..kali sbb ya kata2 motivasi pun berkesan ngn aku...)

till then...

p/s: be positive my friends... if rasa tensen, jom aa g karaoke... hihihi...

preee time

i had too much of free time (really ah?!!!) until i don't know what to do...

















if only u know what i did..then you'll know how deadly bored i am...

aKu

aku,
aku masih di sini, begini
aku masih mengharap,
pada suatu yang aku masih ragu-ragu, masih tidak pasti
aku juga masih tertanya-tanya kenapa mengharap suatu yang tiada jaminan,
nanti aku kecewa, aku menangis
tapi biarlah begitu,
kerana biarlah aku menanti, mengelamun,
daripada terbangun daripada mimpi indah ku ini.

I Want to Feel Good

C'mon my friends, praise me, say something good about me.. i want to feel good.. i want to feel confident. Today, i feel better, i think, compared to..uhhhuu..i don't know..a few days ago, maybe. But still my self esteem is not as high as what i want it to be. i need to feel alive, feel the positive energy around me...
Anyway, just now i was on my way jogging but it rained heavily that i have to cancelled my plan. Jogging is a way for me to relieve the negative feelings in me and to make me feel good. Usually during jogging i would think my problems, and when it comes to the frustrated part, i would run as fast as i could, as if to run away from the problems (i wish i could)... then i would feel much better..
Or another way to make me feel contented is by indulging in chocolate. Well, everyone knows how choco acts as mood booster.. but, i don't want to eat choco now due to my weighty issue.. huhu.. if i get one choco, trust me, i won't stop until it finishes, no matter what is the size of the choco.. in fact, any food would for me, esp crunchy food.. oh, it's hard to be me..

Sirna Sudah

Bila cintamu tlah pudar
Aku tak dapat bertahan
Sejuta harapan sirna,
sirna sudah...
Kutak bisa `tuk memaksa
dapat pertahankan cinta
Jika memanglah sudah,
hilang semua...

Sperti bintang di angkasa
jatuh tak dapat bertahan
Hancur dan teruslah musnah,
selamanya...
Mungkin inilah saatnya
hilang 1 yang terindah
Melelahkan bila,
kuharus bertahan...

reff:
Ku melepaskan yang tak kurelakan
Cintamu yang hilang dapat aku rasakan
Inikah jawaban semua perjalanan?
Berakhir menyakitkan,
sanggupkah ku padamkan...

Dapat ku mengertikan semuanya...
Dan kuserahkan waktunya
yang tak mungkin mudah lepaskan
kenanganku denganmu...

Miss Home so Much

What can i say? i just miss home so much... so much that u can't imagine. I long to see the familiar faces of people that i love, people that i can hold, hug and say how much i love them... huhuhu.. this feeling is killing me slowly..i am afraid of the effects it would bring..esp when my exams are getting near. I am struggling to focus on my study and keep myself busy so that i would not think much about home.. Dear, miss you so much..no words can explain.. i miss your winning smile, your words that always keep me alive and motivated, your shoulders that i can cry on, your hands that i can hold when i fell down... what can i do? counting days and seconds when will can i see you..

Again

Again..the days seem gloomy to me.. i could sense something was not right in my heart. I learned before the signs of depression, am i one of the depressed? The fact that i actually admit that i'm depressed makes me feel relieved. At least i know my problem. And knowing me, i will not let problem surpasses me. I will find solutions to make my life brighter. I will try to laugh a lot and if you see me doing something insane, don't try to stop me because it is my way to enjoy life n have fun. Uhhh...how I miss myself before.. a lively girl.. now, i am different, in and out..

chow