*whisper* i'm moody today

I woke up late-around 11.30 am simply because i slept very late last night. Don't blame me. Blame this blog. Ahah! Guess this is my new little obsession (huhu.. as far as i concern, obsession doesn't last long)... i just created Sayau Forever last night!

Anyway, as i intro myself in 'about myself', i do have complicated emotions. Early morning today, i had a little communication with this SOMEONE that made me cry. I hate myself for crying but crying always been a part of me since my mum past away. Tears have been my best friend ever since. I had to admit this - sometimes i do love crying because it relieves me. Sorry, but my heart is so fragile- please don't hurt me...

I took a short nap just now- & i dreamed i met my man. Such a wonderful dream. But you know what? that SOMEONE that i mentioned b4 is HIM. Such a pain when you really love that someone and when that someone did something that you don't really like, you have to accept it because you love him - you call it sacrifice. And it is such a habit to always misunderstood one another when we are far from each other. Everything seems not okay. But when we are together, life is like heaven. Is that because of love? Or it is because of lust? can you tell me?

p/s: i really miss him